thirst and insomnia...
Every now and then I have nights where I just can't fall asleep. Along with insomnia I get really thirsty. I find that quite strange.
Anyhoos, so since I'm up, I figure I'd write a bit. I've slowly begun to go back into my reading days. I picked up a book called 'The Time Traveler's Wife' which is akwardly interesting. I'm about 1/4 way through and I'm still befuddled about why this man is the way he is, I can't quite figure out what disease he has (that is if it isn't fictional).
Anyhoos, so I've been a slightly homesick. Why? I think I'm sort of fed up with the travelling around and not being rooted somewhere. This is not to say that my sense of adventure in travelling is lost, but I feel like I don't have a home home. Ever since university started I've never been in T.O for no longer than a 4 month period. My home home has slowly withered into a home in limbo. It's akward really. My room is no longer the way I've wanted it to be cuz I never find enuf time to fix it up properly. But then again, I'm not there to enjoy it so why bother. I'm really looking forward to finishing up law school next yr and finally settling down somewhere. I'm still rooting for a contract in hk. I think it'd be nice to actually live somewhere other than TO for a period longer than 1 yr. I want to have my room the way I want it to be. I want to be able to buy junk that defines my personality without thinking "hallo, this is not home, where will u leave this stuff when u leave?" or "u won't be able to lug all this home in ur suitcase". I think school has warped my attachment to home. I realize all my moving around has made me feel like I permanently live out of a suitcase. My initial efforts of decorating my room with tonnes of pictures and memorbilia have dwindled into a few random photos. I honestly think that if by time I graduate I'm still going to be unrooted, I will go insane. Bah! I need my family and friends. I need a home home. Man am I home sick. Meep. I need a fast forward button to Christmas. *click* dammit, it's broken.


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