what have I done?

I'm sitting in my office right now, it's almost 6PM. I'm all blurry-eyed from starring at my laptop all day, inputting this and that, fixing this and that. I don't really know the point of this blog, but I felt like writing in it.
I'm tired, really tired. I'm trying to remember what I've done all this time that I've been away from Toronto. Has my year really been as successful and used to the max as it should? I don't know. Everything seems all mushed up. Even though I'll be home in less than two weeks, I suddenly feel very alone. I feel like this whole year I've just been pushing and pushing, trying to fill in every free hour of my day with something, anything. And for what? I don't know, to just keep trudging along? It seems like this year has been sort of directionless. As it comes to an end, I really wonder if I tried hard enough at work, or have made those around me happy. Truthfully, the answer would be, "I don't know."
I have to say this year wasn't too too bad, at least my family was here. I think it's finally hitting me that going to the UK for the next 3 years has become reality. I've got my acceptance, my student visa, my accomodation and my UK banking done. It's all set. But now, I'm just a lil scared going there by myself. Okay, I admit, it's scaring the crap outta me.
The one thing I'm looking forward to, in the midst of heading to the UK, is that there will be 2 friends meeting me in London. Vips who will be training in London at the beginning of Sept and Dor who I will take a trip around Europe with. At least I won't feel too lost for the first week I'm there. Big thanks to you both for being in London with me. It means the world to me.
Anyhoos, I guess I'll get back to work. I have lots of loose ends to tie up.
** 14 days till viv goes home **