bubbles of thoughts...

Okay, I'm procrastinating again. I seem to have run out of things to occupy myself with. So I shall blog. About what? Just things in my head.
So this is what I'm thinking, or well, almost constantly thinking...is the years ahead of me. I know everyone goes through phases of "I have no idea what I'm going to do" to "I know what I'm doing for the next few years." I guess you guys know me well enough to know that I need to know what is going to happen in the next year or two. I always need to plan ahead and see what's going to happen before it happens.
Anyhoos, rite now, I know that many ppl may think that I'm working and studying, what more can I ask for? Being happy. That is what I want to ask for. Sure, if I'm enjoying my job and studies, what's there to be unhappy about? Fact is, this is not what I want. I don't really like my job or living here. I want to have an enjoyable job and studies in a place I like living in. So at the moment, all I keep trying to tell myself is that I just have to do whatever it is I have to do for the next few months so I can earn some money for tuition and then I'm outta here.
Right now, my summer months are uncertain. Big boss says, "you don't have anything planned for July and August right?" How do you say, "erm sir...I'm planning to go backpacking"?? You can't! You either take the job and earn the money, or use money you don't have for a trip you've wanted to go on forever. Hmm. Tough one eh? Gah!! I'm just keeping my fingers crossed that if I do stay until end of July, that I can sneak outta here by August to do my own travelling.
Anyhoos, back to my thinking. 1) bear it for the next few months then, 2) head of to the UK for my studies and have the best time of my life 3) return to toronto to settle back down with a nice job and hopefully my own place. Hmm. I know, some of you are probably already thinking, "damn! you think far!" But the thing is, if I don't keep thinking that I will return back to Toronto, I feel that it might not happen.
So yeah, the above thought pattern is what goes through my head everyday, especially when I'm having a bad day. Hehe. Oy.
Okay, that was some good procrastination. No worries peeps, I won't bore you guys with these boring procrastination blogs. I'll try to keep them to a minimum. I'll blog when more phun and interesting things happen. But thanx for dropping by and reading my uninteresting thoughts anyways.