zzz...please!

So it's 2.30 in the morning. Not too late, but I can't seem to fall asleep. I want to sleep! I'm so tired. My brain needs to rest, so why won't it stop whirring and go to sleep?! I wish I had a button to press. "Click" and you would go into sleeping mode. I think this is one of the latest evenings that I haven't fallen asleep since being in bed from 9 this evening. I thought tv helped me sleep, but I guess it doesn't.
Anyway, so review of my stay back home so far. It seems like I've been here for a long time. But at the same time, time seems to be going by too quickly. I feel so unproductive, like I haven't done any of the things I should be doing here. I now go in and out of my room and sometimes I think being here at home is surreal. I feel maybe that I'm not really here, but in hk thinking really really hard that I'm in toronto. Yeah, I know I'm weird, but I like to do that if I'm missing a place. I like to squeeze my eyes really tight and imagine I'm in certain places. I think really hard about every detail I can remember to make it feel like I'm really there. It works. So anyway, sometimes I feel like I'm not really in toronto. Bah. The thing is, I see my last day here approaching quick and I'm still just sitting here, growing more weary of that day, but not doing what I should be doing. I need to make the best of my time here in toronto.
Phunnie thing is that I think I could as easily tell my parents that I don't want to go back to HK and just have my tutor come in everyday and tutor me instead of going back to HKU. That would be the end of having to endure a long flight back and having to stay in hk for longer than I want to. I could stay here, but can I really?
Am I really in toronto now? Is viv slowly going crazy? Gah! I need sleep and some peace and quiet! I really really really wish I had the house all to myself for just a few days. I just need some quiet time for myself. Arg!