home...

I'm home at last. I was so looking forward to coming home. I couldn't wait to see my friends and family. But after I got home, it wasn't the same. Things felt different. I don't know what is really different, except me perhaps. I have so much to say, but don't know how to say it. Have I really been away for so long? No, not really. But, what seems to be so different that I'm not getting that comfortable old feeling back? Sigh. I'm starting to get this feeling that I'm losing myself. I'm starting to feel like I don't have a home. Home is not here, home is not over there either. Where is home?
What a way to kick off the new year. Happie new year peeps. Help me find me, please? I've seemed to have lost myself along the way.