insecurity...

as april draws near, i worry more and more about what i will be doing in sept. this will be the first year that i won't be back in waterloo. my undergrad career will be done. what if i don't get into the courses i applied for in sept? and i don't have a job in sept? it'll be a really big waste of a year. i'm sure my parents won't be too happy about it either. i get this sickening feeling more and more each night before i fall asleep. this feeling of not knowing what to expect, not knowing what i will be doing with my life in the near future. this really sucks. i wish i were a bear, i'd still be hibernating now...i think.