feeling kinda low...

so i've been messed up lately, no biggie. i've always been messed up, it's just depends if it really affects me or not. i guess recently i've been more upset cuz i realized that i haven't made the best out of my university career. i feel that i am a failure to myself in basically all endaveours. i was chatting with my dad last nite and he thinks that i don't have enough confidence in myself. i don't. i really don't. i mean, look at it this way, i turn away friends when maybe i do need them, i don't take the opportunity to make new friends as much as i could and should, and i don't seem to have a knack for relationships. i really do wonder why i'm leading my life the way i do. i haven't been successful throughout my univeristy career, by successful i mean passing courses, i mean, atleast don't fail a course, but i did, so i think i'm dumber than the avg kid.
i noticed that not till this year could i control my urges to get distracted. used to be icq and msn and fone calls woudl distract me. but now, i think i've just disconnected myself. i'm not as nice a person as u think, i'm not there for some ppl when they might need me, and i turn them away.
now let me ask u something, who would want to accept or hire a person that does not have adequate social skills or educational merit? i kno i wouldn't hire me. maybe that's what i'm worried about, being left behind while everyone else moves on. i'll be stuck in the same position i am in now, while all of u guys move ahead with careers, friends and lovers.
i remember my mum telling me since forever, that if u aren't able to sustain a level relative with all ur friends, they'll leave u behind. explanation to that: if ur friends excel in school and find a great job, their expectations of things will change. if ur flipping burgers at mcd's and ur friends are some high end executive, u might just not have the same convos anymore. u may be more worried about putting food on the table, while u other friends are debating on where to vacation. it makes sense.
anybody heard of a quarter life crisis? maybe i'm going through that, but i kno that after i finish realizing that in university i didn't come out top of the class, i'm probably not going to end up being successful and ppl are leaving me behind, there is not quarter life crisis. there is only a mid life crisis, and that happens in ur mid 40's when u realize u don't like ur job, u haven't done all the things u wanted to do before 40 and u don't like the way u support ur family. oh boy, i guess i got another crisis to look forward to. so i guess this isn't really a crisis. i'm just going crazy...